It's About Me

  Firdha Nur Atifa, that's my name but just call me Fira. My parents gave me such a beautiful name, the meaning of my name is cool light from heavenO:). I was born on 20th October 1996, now I'm 15 years old and and grade XI science 1 in SeniorHighSchool 2 palu.
  I'm just ordinary girl, but I have a big dream and InsyaAllah I'll try so hard untill I make my dream come true. I like being my self, if you ask about my relationship, well I'm in relationship with my self, I'm high quality single lol. I love faith, truth, freedom and my ambition is to witness a miracle. I hate two faces people, slut, and people who don't appreciate other people's work, just copy-paste like they can't be creative, if you want to make something, make by ur own thoughts. Don't claim other people's thinking, because the way you do  will not be able you to make something by yourself.
Things About Me:
1.I just'll love a guy who can afford my ambition
2.I think sometimes I become so selfish
3.I take and do things slowly, Because I need to think :D
4.I will try so hard untill I reach something I want
5.I'm a faithful girl #It'sTrue
6.Like a funny guy, I really like a guy who have a sense of humor, because my favorite is laugh that's why guy who make me laugh be my favorite guy
7.I Hate LDR so much
8.I love faithful boyfriend
9.I fall too fast, crash too hard, forgive too easily, and care too much-,-
10.I love music♥
11.If someone hate me, I'll never cared! why should I care about them?:/ I'm not a trouble maker.
12.I easily to get jelous
13.Sometimes I look like cool, Sometimes I look like freak =D
14.I'm shy at first but when you get to know me im the opposite.
15.My personality is very CARELESS -__- . But I'll try so hard to change
16.Hate Faker and Liar (n)
30.One of my crazy impossible obsessions is I want to meet Peterpan in the neverland city, and I'll ask him to follow me to go to the real world, and when we mature I'll marry with him, and go back to the neverland to be immortal couple and rule the neverland and world. Crazy right? :D nothing is impossible in this world, right? but my dream is too impossible LOL, but I don't care , I like all my crazy obsession.

THE FACT !

 I hate the fact that I MISS YOU !

I really really hate my feeling. But you can close your eyes to everything you won't see but you can't close your heart to everything you won't feel.
And it's crazy he can't bear to see me by another guys side, but he doesn't want me right by his, either.

If you read this, maybe u'll ask ur self "whether this post is about me?", confession: yap, it's true, all of this post is about you, I'm just praying you will notice.

" Hey:), life sucks without you, I miss you. I know that i would but, it's not like a 'hey we had some great times you know, keep in touch', it was more like I can't eat, I can't sleep, I haven't spirit of doing something, and like I forget what it feels like to laugh kind of thing.

And I, I really think that you left and you took my heart with you. Sometimes if I miss you I think about our old memories or re-read our old conversation and smile like an Idiot, haha it's so funny. do you remember sometimes we joke,and sometimes we're serious. Sometimes we're just random talking and sometimes we don't talk at all. But not sometimes, but all of the times I feel comfortable with you, and I trust you with every word I say. You're more than a friend. You had my heart, when I'm with you, I never got that feelings with anyone else, yap heart beat get much louder, heart beat stronger than ever, feeling so alive, and feel like life it's full of colors, if you ever fallen in love, you definitely have felt it. Whoever we are,of course we have someone we love silently, when we remember him, we feel like emm like tightness in the chest, but we continue and still love it.
Although I don't know where is he now, what's it going? But it was he who made me like this, A little thing called LOVE ! :)

But I guess it was just in past. Now I feel like life it's just have 2 color it's black and white. I alive when my heart feels like gone, like you really left and took my heart with you, you stole my heart! Can someone give it back to me? 

 I wanted everything to stay the same, but feelings fade and people change.

My feelings just changed. I had been waiting for you to realize that you can spent all the time between us. Missing you had become second nature to me. I never got that phone call, and you never showed up, and we never ran into each other, I just stopped feeling like I needed you so much. And maybe the reason why I have to stop loving a person it's because I have to realize that god removes a person from your life for your protection or because fate chose both of me and you to be friend, where forever is a lot more possible

So, can I ask you something? Can you break the silence we made and be a goood friend like before? 

Now I know love doesn't have to have:')':

And The Most Fact I Hate It's I Love You But I Can't Be With You <3"